but when he finally found a place he would risk everything to return to, a person that he would cling onto until the last second of his life, that damned string of fate finally snapped.

如果你的梦想，是拯救苍生，那我的梦想，便唯你一人。
if your dream is to save the common people, then my dream is only you.

哥哥，对我来说，风光无限是你，跌落尘埃也是你。重点的是“你”，而不是“怎样”的你。
GEGE, TO ME, THE ONE STANDING IN INFINITE GLORY IS YOU; THE ONE FALLEN FROM GRACE IS ALSO YOU. WHAT MATTERS IS ‘YOU’ AND NOT 'HOW’ YOU ARE.

太子殿下，为你战死，是我至高无上的荣耀。
TO DIE IN BATTLE FOR YOUR HIGHNESS IS MY GREATEST HONOR.

我有一个心爱之人还在这世上。
I HAVE A LOVED ONE STILL IN THIS WORLD.

不相信别人，也不相信自己了。
HE NO LONGER BELIEVED IN ANYONE, NOR DID HE BELIEVED IN HIMSELF.

天官赐福。
百无禁忌。
BY THE HEAVEN OFFICIAL'S BLESSING, ALL TABOOS ARE OFF.

我是觉得，人在这世上，不要对任何人太抱希望。不要把其他人想象得太过美好。若是一辈子不相交，远远望着，倒也罢了，但若是相识相知，到某一天，终归会发现这个人和自己想象的不一样，甚至完全相反。到那时候，会很失望的。
I THINK THAT PEOPLE IN THIS WORLD SHOULD NOT HAVE TOO MUCH HOPE FOR ANYONE. DON'T IMAGINE OTHERS TOO BEAUTIFUL. IF YOU DO N’T INTERSECT FOR A LIFETIME, IT ’S OKAY TO LOOK AT IT FROM AFAR, BUT IF YOU KNOW EACH OTHER, YOU WILL FIND THAT THIS PERSON IS NOT THE SAME AS YOU THINK, OR EVEN THE OPPOSITE. BY THAT TIME, IT WILL BE VERY DISAPPOINTING.

不一定，别人失望不失望我不关心。但对一些人来说，某人存在于这世上，本身就是希望。
NOT NECESSARILY, I AM NOT CONCERNED IF OTHERS ARE DISAPPOINTED. BUT FOR SOME PEOPLE, THE EXISTENCE OF SOMEONE IN THIS WORLD IS HOPE IN ITSELF.

如果不知道要怎样活下去，就为了我而活下去吧！如果不知道你活下去有什么意义，那么，不如姑且把我当做那个意义吧。
IF YOU DON'T KNOW HOW TO LIVE ON ANYMORE, THEN LIVE FOR ME. IF YOU DON'T KNOW THE MEANING TO YOUR LIFE, THEN MAKE ME THAT MEANING, AND USE ME AS THE REASON TO LIVE.

为你明灯三千，为你花开满城。为你所向披靡，为你战死是我至高无上的荣耀。

THREE THOUSAND LIGHTS FOR YOU, BLOOMING FOR YOU. IT IS MY SUPREME GLORY TO OVERWHELM YOU, TO FIGHT FOR YOU.

一手仗剑，一手拈花，意喻“坐拥灭世之力，不失惜花之心＂。
A SWORD IN ONE HAND, A FLOWER IN THE OTHER, SYMBOLISING 'THE POWER TO END THE WORLD BUT WITH A HEART AS GENTLE AS THE FLOWER'.

殿下，我了解你的全部。
你的勇敢，你的绝望；你的善良，你的痛苦；你的怨恨，你的憎恶；你的聪明，你的愚蠢。
如果可以，我愿意你把我当做垫脚石，过河拆的桥，向上爬要踩碎的尸骨，活该千刀万剐的罪人。但我知道你不会。
YOUR HIGHNESS, I KNOW EVERYTHING ABOUT YOU.
YOUR BRAVERY, YOUR DESPAIR; YOUR KINDNESS, YOUR PAIN; YOUR RESENTMENT, YOUR AVERSION; YOUR INTELLIGENCE, YOUR STUPIDITY.
If I could, I would have you use me as your stepping stone, the bridge you take apart after crossing, the corpse bones you need to trample to climb up, the sinner who deserved butchering of a million knives. BUT I KNOW YOU WON'T.

路好不好走，也许我不能决定，但走不走，却只有我能决定。
I MIGHT NOT BE ABLE TO DECIDE WHETHER THE ROAD IS EASY OR NOT, BUT WHETHER I WALK IT IS ENTIRELY UP TO ME.

认识你之后我才重新发 现, 原来开⼼是这么简单 的事 。
ONLY AFTER I'VE MET YOU THAT I REDISCOVERED THAT BEING HAPPY IS SUCH A SIMPLE THING.

我永远不会离开你，我会回来的，殿下，信我。
I WILL NEVER LEAVE YOU, I WILL COME BACK, DIANXIA, BELIEVE ME.

我的心上人，是个勇敢的金枝玉叶的贵人。他救过我的命，我从很小的时候就仰望着他。但我更想追上他，为他成为更好更强的人。虽然，他可能都不太记得我，我们甚至没有说过几句话。我想保护他。
My beloved is a brave, noble, and gracious special someone. He saved my life; I've looked up to him ever since I was young. But I wanted to catch up to him more, and become an even more stronger person for him. Although, he might not remember me well. We never really talked. I want to protect him.

芳心只一剑 如何能救万千
fang xin is just one sword, how can it save thousands?

I WILL FIGHT FOR WHAT I DON'T HAVE. I WILL CHANGE FATES I DON'T POSSESS. MY FATE IS UP TO ME, NOT THE HEAVENS!

TO WATCH WITH YOUR OWN EYES YOUR BELOVED BE TRAMPLED AND RIDICULED WHILE UNABLE TO DO ANYTHING - THAT'S THE WORST SUFFERING IN THE WORLD.

THOSE WHO HAVE KNOWN EACH OTHER FOR DECADES CAN BECOME STRANGERS IN A DAY.


WE MET BY CHANCE AND WE MAY PART BY CHANCE. IF WE LIKE EACH OTHER THEN WE SHALL CONTINUE TO MEET; IF WE DON'T THEN WE SHALL PART. THERE'S NO BANQUET IN THE WORLD THAT DOES NOT COME TO AN END, SO I'LL SAY WHAT I WANT TO SAY.

I, DO NOT WORSHIP GODS. I AM GOD!

THIS LOWLY SERVANT WOULD RATHER DIG OUT HIS ONE GOOD EYE THAN HURT HIS HIGHNESS.


i pray to never rest in peace.

LAST TIME, THEY SPENT EIGHT HUNDRED YEARS RUNNING TOWARDS EACH OTHER.
THIS TIME, IT ONLY TOOK AN INSTANT TO FALL INTO EACH OTHER'S EMBRACE.

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上辈子，这辈子，我都喜欢你，都愿意与你在一起。
BE IT IN THE PREVIOUS LIFE, OR THIS LIFE, I LIKE YOU AND AM WILLING TO BE WITH YOU.

两辈子，都属于你。
不后悔。
TWO LIFETIMES, THEY ALL BELONG TO YOU.
I DON'T REGRET IT.

师尊，我会给你撑一辈子伞。
SHIZUN, I WILL HOLD UP AN UMBRELLA over YOU FOR A LIFETIME.

晚宁。我一直爱你。
WANNING. I HAVE ALWAYS LOVED YOU.

地狱太冷了。墨燃，我来殉你。
HELL IS TOO COLD. MO RAN, I'LL BURY MYSELF WITH YOU.

人间很好，晚宁，我不要你殉我。
THE WORLD OF THE LIVING IS TOO BEAUTIFUL. WANNING, I WON'T LET YOU.

长阶血未尽，那是他带你回家的路。
THE STAIRS ARE STILL STAINED WITH A TRAIL OF BLOOD, THAT'S THE ROAD HE TOOK TO BRING YOU HOME.

我也会饿，也会难受啊，我也是人啊...
I ALSO FEEL HUNGER AND SADNESS, I'M ONLY HUMAN TOO...

墨宗师也好，踏仙君也好，都是你。
我也一直会是你的人。
永不后悔。
whether it's mo-zongshi or taxian-jun, it's all you. i'm all yours. no regrets.

白猫儿跪了一宿，不曾回头。
傻狗也站了一夜，不曾远走。
The white cat knelt all night, never looking back.
The dumb husky also stood all night and never left.

哥，我们再也没有师尊了
ge, we don't have a shizun anymore.

是我薄你，死生不怨。
it was i who wronged you, be it in life or death, i wont blame you.

"wanning..." i love you, i want you, i'll never leave you.

if one day i am guilty of an unforgivable crime, kill me, from here. my spirit core was formed because of you and my heart is yours. if one day i have to die, both these things will belong to you.

I have destroyed you, Chu Wanning! Why did you comfort an executioner. Why did you comfort the man who stabbed himself in the heart, why did you ask me before you died to let myself go?
Why didn’t you kill me back then?

within this coffin, two shall join;
within this sanctuary, two shall lie.
intent in life, revealed in death.
henceforth two shall pass beneath the heavens;
henceforth in death lone souls shall never part.

... his arms were like shackles, latching onto the remaining bit of warmth in his arms, as if holding on to the very last ember of fire in this world.
"i hate you, chu wanning. i really hate you so much."
his voice was hoarse.
"but you're all that i have left.

xianjun xianjun, i've been watching you for so long already, why won't you pay attention to me?

he'd once regarded chu wanning as the cold moon in the ninth heaven, had wholeheartedly revered him, adored him. but what was he to that cold moon, really?

he said, "i'm sorry mo ran. it was this master's fault...'
suddenly the world fell silent. the sound of the wind, the rustling of the leaves, the billowing of robes, all of it faded away.
there was only chu wanning's face looking up at him. it was all that he could see.

in his past life, two people died in his arms.
shi mei. chu wanning.
one was the love of his life whom he thought about day and night. the other was his mortal enemy whom he had entwined with for a lifetime.
when shi mei died, he disappeared from the world.
and when chu wanning died... ?
mo ran didn't know. all he knew was the feeling of the person in his arms slowly growing colder and colder on that day. he didn't cry, nor did he laugh; joy and sorry both grew out of reach.
when chu wanning died, mo weiyu no longer knew what the world even was anymore.

the cold moon reflects upon the frosty snow; the frozen mountain embraces the icy lake. the tallest of the tall cannot be crossed, and the despair of the world is in this timely moment.

𝘵𝘰 𝘺𝘦𝘢𝘳𝘯 𝘶𝘯𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘵𝘪𝘯𝘨𝘭𝘺 𝘣𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘬𝘴 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘸𝘪𝘭𝘭𝘰𝘸 𝘣𝘳𝘢𝘯𝘤𝘩.

he said, "shizun, i'm really not... beyond remedy..."
𝘴𝘰, 𝘱𝘭𝘦𝘢𝘴𝘦, 𝘥𝘰 𝘯𝘰𝘵 𝘨𝘪𝘷𝘦 𝘶𝘱 𝘰𝘯 𝘮𝘦—
but he couldn't finish the rest of the sentence. last lifetime, he wanted to say it but didn't; this life, it was also already too late.

his heart wasn't made of stone. nothing made him happier than to have someone nice to him.

a little kindness, and his smile would be brilliant as the spring.
but if it's a lot, lot of kindness, then he'd willingly die without complaint.

how many people in this vast world would be willing to abandon a perfect dream just to save another?

"thank you for waking up, thank you for still remembering me even in that dream."
chu wanning held him, caressing his hair, as if still in a dream, and sighed softly, "did you know, the most wonderful dreams are rarely ever real?"

it hurt too much to hold one person in his heart, so he hid him carefully in the very depths of his heart. it was fine if that person didn't like him, as long as he could think about that person quietly, protect that person silently; it was fine if he couldn't have that person.

he knelt in the depths of sin, he knelt in the heights of virtue.
he knelt in untold gratitude, he knelt in utmost hatred.

the one he liked, in this life and last, was shi mei. but why, moments before death, had he chosen to bury himself under the haitang tree in front of the heaven-piercing tower, where he had first met chu wanning?

before death, ye wangxi had said: "there is not a single man in all the seventy cities of rufeng."


𝘯𝘰 𝘳𝘦𝘵𝘶𝘳𝘯...
𝘢𝘧𝘧𝘢𝘪𝘳𝘴 𝘰𝘧 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘱𝘢𝘴𝘵 𝘶𝘱𝘰𝘯 𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘮𝘪𝘭𝘭𝘪𝘰𝘯 𝘣𝘳𝘪𝘥𝘨𝘦 𝘪𝘯 𝘦𝘮𝘦𝘳𝘢𝘭𝘥 𝘨𝘳𝘦𝘦𝘯;
𝘢𝘯𝘰𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳 𝘺𝘦𝘢𝘳 𝘨𝘰𝘦𝘴 𝘣𝘶𝘵 𝘴𝘵𝘪𝘭𝘭 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘥𝘰 𝘯𝘰𝘵 𝘳𝘦𝘵𝘶𝘳𝘯.

in the end, chu wanning died.
he couldn't remember if he had shed any tears that night, only that when he woke in the morning, the long blade that had gone nameless for over a decade had been engraved with two clear-cut characters.
"bu'gui."
you will not return.
ever again.

it was i who wronged you; i wont blame you, in life or in death.

behind chu wanning, he saw mountains of corpses and oceans of blood; he couldn't quite tell if it was the battleground at butterfly town, or if he had already gone to hell. he was well aware that he had sinned irredeemably, that he belonged in the infinite hells, never again to be reincarnated.
but chu wanning...
he was a good person.
why would he be here with him, to suffer an eternity in hell?

the stairs are still stained with a trail of blood; that's the road he took to bring you home.

"mo ran, this whole life, no matter what happened in the end... it's all because i failed to teach you well, because i called you deficient by nature and beyond remedy... it was i who wronged you; i won't blame you, in life or in death..."
arduously, he lifted his gaze to look at mo ran's face face; he wanted to cry, but it was blood that flowed slowly from his eyes and trickled down his face.
chu wanning wept. he said, "do you truly hate me so much... that you will not grant me so much as a moment of peace... even at the very end..."

in his last life, he had loved someone dearly.
later, that person had given up his life, and he'd ended up in hell.
in this life, there was someone else who loved and protected him.
later, that person had given up his life, and brought him back to the world of the living.

... day after day i thought about this, until it had permeated into my very bones, became second nature. that's why, later on, i didn't even realize—that as the days passed by, i had grown into the you in my heart.

where there was shizun, there was light.
where there was chu wanning, there was a flame.

later on, every daybreak was golden like chu wanning's soul. every nightfall was dark like chu wanning's eyes. later on, every beam of white moonlight was like the snow on his sleeves, every rising sun was like the warmth in his eyes. later on, he'd seen chu wanning's silhouette in the vermillion clouds by the horizon, in the cerulean light of dawn, in the surging, billowing clouds.
he was everywhere.

"wanning."
in one breath, he had expended all his courage.
"i love you."
"i love you, not the way a disciple loves his shizun, but... i'm being bold, i... i love you."

"would you like to see my eyes?"
"your eyes...?"
mo ran's gaze was gentle, reflecting the figure of a man in white. he said, "did you see that? he's the most beautiful person in the world."

i held your hand, wanning, my heart is warm.

the person i love has always been you.
it has always been you. i was too stupid. i couldn't differentiate my own thoughts before.
i'm sorry.
i made you wait a long time.

he didn't want to wake up.
i just want to have a good dream.
until dawn.
there was no light, no fire, and in the darkness, mo ran embraced him and kissed him.

jiang xi was silent for a moment, as if he had been stabbed by nangong si's pride. he sneered, "you sure are confident."
"sect leader jiang is wrong. i don't believe in myself, i just believe in her."

fortunately, in the end, he didn't have the time to thank her for not leaving and for not giving up. fortunately, he didn't have time to tell her that he had finally understood her good intentions, and that he was willing to stay with her forever.

if you don't know how to save yourself, how can you save others?

i can't accompany you, i'm not worthy of you, i'm so cheap and dirty, so destructive, but you're pure.

i can't stand by your side anymore, wanning. let me stand in front of you and protect you from the blood and the knife.
until the day of my death.

everyone was cursing you, they want to punish you.
i know the truth, but i can't give you back your dignity.

waking up from the dream to see the drizzle, the rivers and mountains still seem old and gentle.
may i be like the moon and the stars, and the light of the night.

"wanning." he finally closed his eyes and sighed. "in the end, it's just you and me."

i can't find my mother.
he couldn't find his shizun either.
please, hell is too cold.
just let me go back, okay...
i want to go home.

"mo ran, why is your face so cold..."
... but why are you so cold.
i don't know how long i can burn, but what if when i'm exhausted and burnt out, and if when i'm extinguished, you still walk in the dark and refuse to look back?

"eight years. after he was reborn, how long did he have you? i was alone, waiting for how long in the mortal world."
"don't leave me a second time. the first time, i could die. now, i can't even choose to die. i will not be able to take it..."

xue zhengyong suddenly choked with sobs.
"but this world owes him... did someone give it back to him... has anyone returned it to him..."

looking back, he couldn't find a safe place from scratch in his two lifetimes. he couldn't find a truly carefree and simple day, even if it was just a day.
he had lived for more than forty years, and yet, there was not a single peaceful night in his life.

he saw his god riding the dragon, swooping down from the sky.
he saw the white clothes of his god, looking like an exiled immortal.
mo ran's heart suddenly hurt, and it was even more painful than being stabbed by a knife.
he saw his god crying, chu wanning... he was crying.

but i just want to be with you, be it lying in the tyrant's legend or rotting on the fearful ranking, it's all good.
i do not want future generations to refer to you as a ghost when they speak of us. i don't want future generations of books to say that you and i are enemies.

it was just like how, at the peak of mount kunlun in his previous life, taxian jun carried his dying body and tried to save his life.
it was useless.

i owe you.
no one knows the truth, not even your own memories.
however, i finally know...
i finally know that you've only been my disciple for a few months, but you've spent two lifetimes protecting me.

there are eight sufferings in life, and there's long hatred in death.

i can take his place and become the knife and weapon you want.
i can replace him and become the demon you want for killing.

shizun, soon i... i'm going to disapoint you...

mo ran said hoarsely and persistently, "what i ask for... one day, to die under shizun's hands."
"i don't want to be a devil... i don't want to go to hell... i don't want to remember only hate, shizun..."

in my previous life, in this life, i have always loved you and was always willing to be with you. in the future, i'm also willing.

once i found out that you were cursed, i couldn't show it. i could only hate you... now i can finally make it up to you.

i love you, i'm willing to tie the knot with you, i'm willing to die for you, and i'm willing to submit to you.

mo ran, no matter how it used to be, or how it will be in the future, i will always be with you.
as a person who had belonged to taxian-jun in his past life, and also someone who belongs to mo-zongshi.

they slept in each other's arms, both of them thinking, 𝘚𝘰, 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘪𝘴 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘳𝘦𝘴𝘵 𝘰𝘧 𝘮𝘺 𝘭𝘪𝘧𝘦.

好，我听你的，我睡。但是明天我一叫你，你就要记得醒来，不要赖床
But when I call you tomorrow, you must remember to wake up and don’t sleep in bed.

good night, mo ran.
the night is long, but i will stay with you. may you have a good dream, a fire, and a light.
and a home.

有本座在，你死不了。
this venerable one is here, you can't die.

only on the day when i'll leave will you leave.

it's scary to stand alone without any help.
however, the most undesirable thing is blind obedience and following the so-called teachings of god.

i used to think i had nothing else to ask of the world, and that i was not afraid of death.
but i don't want to go now. he's still in the world, and i can't let him go.

"wanning..."
in the dead of night, the man sleeping beside him muttered.
"please pay attention to me..."

— 𝘪 𝘥𝘪𝘥 𝘮𝘺 𝘣𝘦𝘴𝘵 𝘵𝘰 𝘬𝘦𝘦𝘱 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘢𝘭𝘪𝘷𝘦.
𝘴𝘰 𝘯𝘰𝘸, 𝘤𝘢𝘯 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘭𝘦𝘵 𝘮𝘦 𝘣𝘦 𝘴𝘦𝘭𝘧𝘪𝘴𝘩 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘥𝘪𝘦 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘩𝘪𝘮?

"wanning..."
taxian jun closed his eyes, and the faint smile on his face gradually faded.
"don't be sad, he's always here."

shizun, don't worry, it's me.
i was there all the time.
i will be in the future.
thus... go back. don't stay here.
believe me, i'll be fine. i'll try my best to see you, to be with you.
i'll wait for you in another world.

go back. wanning.
you have to believe me.
i'll be fine. i'll always be by your side.
forever.

—he walked slowly to the man standing under the dead wood, to the end of everything, to the end of the pain of two lifetimes, to the end of the world.

i thought, if i really guessed wrong, i can wait for you. ten years, or even tens of years. if you become immortal, then even hundred, or even thousands of years would suffice.

in this sort of serenity and warmth, that year's cold rain and snow in the deep winter of nanping mountain would eventually fade from his memories. perhaps one day, the pain he had experienced would become a faint shadow.

the world of the living is too beautiful. wanning, i don't want you to martyr me.

"wanning, i love you."
i love you.
from dawn to dusk.
every day.
all his life. for a lifetime.

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he was the greatest stain of his life.

he closed his eyes.
that's not it.
if it was possible, i never even thought of fighting you.
in the past, you gave me light, you gave me warmth, and all of the warm blood flowing through my heart, it was all because of you.
without you, i wouldn't be here today.

"i want to live! what's so bad about wanting to live with my heart at ease! mo xi, do you understand me? huh?! i can't keep living, when things are like this! i'm not at peace!! in my dreams, in my sleep, are the faces of all those who have died! i can't live on in wakefulness at all!! do you know the agony of wanting to die every day, and every night! you don't understand it all!!!"

and in the spaces between their breaths, he caressed gu mang's hair, murmuring, "yes. i will give it to you."
i will give it to you.
i will give you a home.
this is the first time you have voluntarily asked me for something. even if it's a joke, or simply nonsense that you're spouting, i've taken it seriously.

i don't need too many years to accomplish it, i won't take too long. i want to give you a home, i want to be by your side forever.
gu mang, wait for me a little while longer... will you...

he whispered, "your... your eyes... if only they were black."
if it's dark, i can still lie to myself and say that all this hasn't happened. it's just a ridiculous nightmare i had when we were stationed in the former garrison.
i can also lie to myself, saying that when i wake up, you are still that smiling young man full of hope, i can also stay with you to listen to you.
the dark eyes closed slowly.
gu mang, if your eyes were black... how nice...

"—gu mang! i regarded you as my companion, my bestfriend, my..."
my lover. my god.
what i hate is your betrayal and change. what you abandoned was not only me, but also your brother, your dream, and the light of your past.
and who you used to be.

he could only be alone in the hall, guarding his brother, his lover, his last remaining god.

but what should he say?
i'm not a traitor?
i'm not a bad guy?
i love you. i want to be with you, i don't mean to alienate you.
can you believe me?
he couldn't say anything.
even at this time, he still couldn't say anything!

"i liked you all this time... i'm sorry, i used to be selfish. i didn't think about what you really wanted, what i really feared. i just wanted to protect you in my own way, but i didn't know... but i didn't know..."
but i didn't know you would stumble after eight years of time. the best of your youth failed, just to find me back. i dind't know that you'd choses a person for life since you were so young.
i don't know if you were willing to accompany me, even if you would go to hell.

“墨熄，我们回家了。”
战火结束了，都结束了。
我们回家吧。
我们回家了。
"Mo Xi, we are going home."
The war is over, it is over.
We go home.
We are home.

life or death, I will always love you and be proud of you.

thank you, you are the only one willing to give me a life worse than death.

“Mo Xi, please… Help me, I've been soaked in blood for eight years… Can you hold me again…
I miss you….”

stain me with blood, give me your hand.
no matter how dirty, i will embrace you.
no matter how much it hurts, i will stay with you.
no matter how far, i will bring you home.


"所以， 你会城之后，两魄失却，理智丧失。。。我一直以为戕害你的是燎国人，挖你魄灵的也是燎国人。。。却原来。。。却原来。。。
却原来是我自己吗？！
这就是我的天命？
顾茫！我也是个活人啊，你预知过我是什么滋味吗。。。。。。”
"So, after you came to the city, you lost your two souls and your sanity... I always thought that the people who killed you were the Liao nation, and the people who dig your soul were also the Liao nation... But it turned out... but it turned out...
Was it me? !
This is my destiny?
Gu Mang! I'm a living person too, have you foreseen what it's like to me? . . . . . "

顾茫对墨熄而言，就像纸上墨，雪中泥，以及君子合该整齐洁白的床褥上，落下的那一抹令人想入非非的血。
——他是他一生的污点。
To Mo Xi, Gu Mang was like ink on paper, mud in snow, and a touch of imaginative blood falling on the neat white mattress that a gentleman should have.
——He is the stain of his life.

”人各有命，缘深缘浅。”
Every person have a life of their own, fate cannot be controlled.

“是生是死，我永远爱你，以你为傲。“
Life or death, i will always love you, and be proud or you.

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for "hate", he had not hesitated to take up a blade and start a bloodbath.

he thought, i won't look better than jing lin in the future, because the world needs only one of him. it'd be better for me to be more powerful and stronger than him.

what was cold was not his skin, but his soul.

he had never been so sure that if he were to leave jing lin this very moment, he would perish, buried all alone in the boundless snow.

he could not let go of jing lin. at least, he could not let go of jing lin until he had Devoured jing lin.

"is cang ji good?"
"he's always biting me. no."
cang ji laughed aloud and said, "then what should we do? he will definitely bite you again in the future."
"then." jing lin replied in all seriousness. "bite me gently."

across hundreds of years. they had witnessed how jing lin had changed from a person who still had warmth into someone without.

"that would mean you lied to me." cang ji stared at him. "if you lie to me, jing lin, even if you turn to ashes, i'll piece you back together and force you to come back and pay it all back to me in full."

if he deceives me one day. cang ji stared at jing lin as he latter walked towards him with an obscure gaze amidst the flickers of flames. i'll kill him, eat him, chew him into pieces. i'll permit him to become one with me, so that he can never lie to me again.

"if coincidences in the world are so common, then i want to 'coincide' with you too."

"forget? he is the one i can't forget the most in the world. i'd rather suffer from the pain of pining for hundreds of years to come than to forget him."

"the one who can marry lord lin song." cang ji's gaze was brash and wild. "has to be a man like me."

jing lin, the spring water over precipitous rocks; azure clothes among cold pines.
a welcome rain after a long drought.

he's my tribulation; therefore, he's my life.

when the day comes for him to devour the blood sea, i will draw my sword to protect him.

"the moment i joined ninth heaven gate, i am a sword of the world." jing lin said, "all sufferings are but merely experience when one sharpens a sword for years.

he thought, this lad is indeed my tribulation. day after day, he had to send his heart into a beating frenzy. by now his heart had almost been nuzzled into a pool of water. how he wished to turn into a tenderness pliable enough to wrap around his finger. he yearned so much to grab him into his arms, twirl a few rounds, and hear him say a few more words.

"from now on, if you are the lotus pond's lotus, i can be the lotus pond's fish."

this smile was like the melting of ice and snow. it not only set his heart on fire, but even turned all his covetous thoughts into a boundless sea of desire.

he's younger than me by many years. and smaller than me many times over. i can hold him in the palms of my hands and embrace him in my arms. i can even have all the vulnerable parts of my chest and abdomen to him, and offer him the protection of my tough armor of solid scales so that he can let all his childishness and naivety out in the open without fear.

the way lies in heaven and on earth. like a cascade of mercury upon the ground; each of it, round. like the reflection of the moon in the water; visible all round.

but how was jing lin to know that cang ji had not set his sights on his life, but his heart, his soul, his entire self?

cang j said, "i want to see you thousands of times a day, and fantasize about you thousands of times in my mind."

as long as one was human, they would have a heart. so how would jing lin not have one?

"don't believe anyone but me." cang ji whispered in his ear like a nightmare. "your father. your brothers. they will all lie to you. but i won't."

"if you aren't lord lin song, then you can only be my..." cang ji paused for a moment. "mine."

"you are just like my reverse scale. you live, i live. you are my life. therefore, no matter how difficult things are in the future, or how arduous life becomes, i want you to live."

"i have never known fear." jing lin said, "but i don't want you to die."

there's a man i love.
i expcted him to be my tribulation, but then i fell under his spell. i yearn to see him in the day, and i yearn to see him at night. i want to treat him well with all the earnestness i could muster, and at the same time, i want to bully him in the most licentious ways possible. i can't explain it clearly, but that's what it meats. the moment i met him, i became a rascal, because i can't help it either.

why isn't he answering? does he not want me? does he not like me? it'd be best if he doesn't like me. because i want him to love me.

“你活着。”
苍霁凶声咬着字，捏得净霖颊面泛红，他忽地落下泪来，重复道。
“你活着！”
"You are alive."
Cang Ji bit the words with a fierce voice, pinching Jinglin's cheeks red, he burst into tears and repeated.
"You are alive!"

他们将他的心爱剐鳞抽筋。
他们将他的道义变作妄谈。
they sliced off the scales and extracted the tendons of his beloved.
they turned his moral principles into presumptuous lies.

逆鳞的微光是净霖唯一的亮，他还能从佛珠上嗅到苍霁的味道，哪怕仅仅是血味。
the gleam of the reverse scale was jing lin's only light. he could still smell cang ji's scent on the prayer bead, even if it was only the scent of his blood.

我是净霖。
我有所爱隔山海
"i'm jing lin."
"i have a beloved, over the mountains and across the seas..."

"i'm his reverse scale... my name is jing lin... ming jin stage... city of huaishu... qixing town... he and i, he..."
who is he?
"i want to form a marriage alliance with him... in qixing town... ming jin stage... come for me, for me..."
he shouted in a hoarse voice, "at ming jin stage! i'll wait for you at ming jin stage! wait for you... to take me home... who, who? i have a beloved, over the mountains and across the seas... i have..."

我心有所爱。
在云端，在瀚海，在心口
there's a man i love.
in the clouds. in the sea. in my heart.

“……哥哥。”
净霖酸涩又委屈地喊。
“带我回家。”
"... gege," jing lin cried out in gried and aggrievement. "take me home."

他从来不是想要吃掉净霖。
他只是在渴求他失去的逆鳞。
all along, he had never wanted to eat jing lin.
he was merely longing for the reverse scale he had lost.

he wanted to go out. he wanted to go and find a dragon.

he would not die. even if he was already scarred all over, even if he was on the verge of insanity, he would not die. because the dragon aura was in his body, defending it.

他属于一条龙，一条龙也属于他
he belonged to a dragon. and a dragon also belonged to him.

净霖掸衣转身，怔神于雨中，忽然说:“雨这样大，我竟像是在等一个人。”
Jing Lin turned around, stunned in the rain, and suddenly said: "The rain is so heavy, I seem to be waiting for someone."

the spiritual sea begets one's original form, and in the original form reside one's heart.

my way has all but disintegrated.

if i miss this moment... then it'd be just like i've never lived this life.

but how could i be mistaken when it comes to my reverse scale? my life is here. you live, i live. you and i are bount by one life. from now on, i won't let you run.

“it’s only human to have emotions and desires.” zong yin stretched out his neck and fumed. “so what crime am I guilty of?!”

he could not transcend, because she was his tribulation—the one thing he could never have.

This one smile turned all the pandemonium into a mere illusion. That thousand and hundred years of pain and suffering all vanished like smoke into thin air. This was how the exchanges of gaze between lovers should be—as if they had nothing to fear, even if it was the end of the world itself. All the words they had to say lay concealed in their eyes—words that no one else in this whole world, other than the other party, would ever understand.

eventually, you will follow your heart and embark on a bumpy path. you are both variables of heaven and earth. someday, you will understand that ‘wanting’ in itself is suffering.

"my younger sister, qing yao, was born with no one to depend on and died with no place to call home. heaven and earth let her down. so i shall let down heaven and earth."

i am dong jun. such trivialities are beneath me.

many years ago, i didn’t understand why humans love, so i made hatred the one and only thing in my life. but, i raised a fish. and from then on, hatred no longer existed. you want me to lay down my blade, but i was born a sword. to put it down, you’ll need me to die.

the eastern sea begets a great devil.
the eastern sea yearns to evolve into a dragon.

"tell me, isn’t heaven and earth ridiculous? it always loves to toy with all the living creatures like this. it gave qing yao an extremely evil origin, yet it also gave qing yao an extremely kind heart."

my silly little devil.
cang ji’s adam’s apple throbbed as he thought with difficulty.
just how devastating can you be to suck away my life like this?

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it's easy to die proudly but it takes even more courage to live through the pains.

"you were right. with a status like mine and a world like this, i'm destined to be lonely for my whole life. i want to stand at the highest place but those who stand at the highest place are always the loneliest. yet, i still cling onto the hope that one day i'll meet someone and be with that person and we'll understand and support each other."

murong yu...
he's so gentle. he's so caring. his words always tug on even the toughest of my heartstrings. perhaps, after i leave him, i'll only be able to reminisce in my dreams on the darkest of nights about this warmth that i once had.

in this world, there's only him and there's only me.
so please, let me be greedy for just now. let me hang onto this transient warmth. let me give free reins to my feelings just this once. let me remember his warmth and his kiss, let this moment be the most longing one of my life, and let him be engraved in my heart, for this life and all the ones to come and never fade away.

would i be able to find him in the sea of people when i have ascended the throne and have ownership of this land? even if i do find him, who is to say time would not have changed everything between us? would it all have already withered away and become distant memories?

how are you, murong yu? what are you up to? i really miss you. if only i were still by your side.
is all this your punishment for me?
i don't want that position at the top. i don't want to be the emperor that rules over the world. i just want to live my life without any restraints.

I’m starting to like the dark. Only in the darkness can I forget everything. However, in the darkness, longing starts to grow furiously like vines, winding around me and stopping me from speaking and moving.

he disappears from my sight without even once turning back to look.
in a few moments' time, he has already gone from loving to hating me.
i'll just blame it on my being thin on love, i'll...
just let him hate me from now on so i can wait for that day, if it does come, when i can die without a single regret or worry for this world.

i like you and i'll protect you. i won't let another nightmare haunt you when you're in my arms.

this person and his embrace—his warm embrace—are the things i'm going to treasure for a lifetime.

Let everything end when the morning sun rises.
And tomorrow, we shall be in separate corners of this world.

That day, I couldn’t help meeting him; today, I couldn’t help leaving him.

han xin, you asshole. where the hell are you?
han xin, am i ever going to see you again?
han xin, you get back here this instant!
han xin...

the minister's mansion and the duke's manor are only separated by a few street blocks, yet it has taken me twelve long years to find my way back home.

The person I love the most has become my enemy. Is this the irony destiny had planned for us?

He is the happiness I used to have. The warmth I used to have. Even if I had to abandon everything, including my power and my life, I wouldn’t want to lose what I once had.

in this world, i've been abandoned by my parents, yet i believe he... i believe he was true to me.
if i could choose again, i would never leave him.

where are you, murong yu? why have you still not come yet?
i don't want anything. i just want you to come and take me away from this terrible nightmare.

"Say, Xin, how nice would it be if the sun didn’t rise.”

if you died—died under my sword—i would let you have a proper end as well.

I just knew you want to see me from the way you looked at me, but you just won’t say it.

if i get to spend just a little more time with him, then i'll have bits and pieces i can treasure for the long road ahead of me, no matter how dark it gets.

"you say you love me xin, but how much do you really?"
"As much as this world is large, as much as nature is beautiful; for the rest of my life, there will only be one in Han Xin’s heart."

but i don't want that. if this was meant to be, even if i had known that it would be like this, i would still want to meet you and get to know you, even if what lies ahead is unpredictable and we end up on different ends of the world.

murong yu, even though our farewell is imminent, i, han xin, from my heart to my body, will be yours totally.

i love you, murong yu, and i will never betray that, with the heaven and the earth as witness and the sun and the moon as proof.

He belonged to the realm, to the country, to the royal clan of Lin, to everybody except to himself and that man in the north.

It’s been twenty years, he thought to himself. He had become old and he as well, but the love between them only became richer with time like wine.

The sky is still the same, the water is still the same, but on this desert and under this horizon, there are no more of that person.

Once upon a time, someone loved and someone waited, but none can escape the wheels of fate.

they met and they loved. they left one another and they watched one another from afar. they have both departed this world and no battle or war will separate them.

... from now on, there will be no wars, no arguments, no loneliness, no farewells, no separation.
there will only only be an eternity that belongs to them.